i nvr failed any exam before. this sucks. moral. 36. excuse me. me? fail? nvr. i'm jus wondering how to break the news. but as a plus point my english got 95. but moral. i nvr cared much for it. i mean. its stupid crap. i cud f it here but since i don swear. tell me. how do u learn moral by memorising the nilai and their meanings? i mean. don tell me the TEXT BOOK has to TELL you how to help an old lady cross the road. and what that means. kasih sayang. perasaan cinta yg mendalam dan berkekalan yang lahir dari hati yang ikhlas. don tell me tht i have to know what love means before i can love someone? it doesnt EVEN make common sense. what abt those ppl who dunno what it means in words, literally. they don't love? stupid.

i mean the subject is a waste of time, energy and resources. we could be learning other things instead of how to write a good essay with the correct format for a meaningless subject. in the end, do the students who score in the moral paper have good moral conduct. NO! does it mean that the person who is the highest is the best person in class? NO!! the kindest person in class who has the biggest heart may not score high. and the top scorer may be a jerk for all you know. its a stupid subject. doesn't teach you at all to be a btr person. as much as the government wants it to. pls la. you learn how to be good thru examples and people around you. not in a text book! the pendidikan ppl reli have to make this subject a more practical one if they intend to teach ppl abt morals.

and i havn started on the facts that we have to memorize out of the book. the names of the bombs in Hiroshima and Nagasaki are part of moral? you mean we have to know the names of them before we can be good people? names of a bomb? i'll give you bomb la. shit bomb. and thats not all tht can come out in exam. the akta-akta, persidangan and unions our country is involved in oso must know. how is all this suppose to make us btr ppl wit good moral conduct? this is general knowledge! not moral!

but anyway. i'm not talkin abt moral. i'm talkin abt my results. i'm gonna lose to so many ppl in class la. i mean, i got crap marks pls. i noe got ppl worse then me. i'm sorry. we gotta work harder then. lots more. hols is gonna be study time. add math, physics, chem. all have to work. i must understand everything before i get to form 5. otherwise i die.

today was perpisahan. form 5 and upper 6 leaving skul. study for spm and stpm. taking photos all. nxt yr we gonna be lyk them. cry. and then spm. scary... oh well. btr start workin on it now. i must do well the nxt time. how funny. i always say tht. and it nvr turns out good. oh well... i will. wit fan 4 and sunny helpin me and me helpin them, we gonna make it thru the rain.