giving everyday my best shot
Saturday, October 24, 11:25:00 pm
The things some idiots do

Was just reading an interesting case.

R v Miller [1983] 2 AC 161 (HL)

James Miller who was drunk, fell asleep with a lighted cigarette in his hand. Upon waking up, he discovered that his mattress was on fire.

His reaction?? He simply moved out of the room to a neighbouring one!

Verdict: Convicted of arson

On law, its really interesting. And I think its a lot a thinking subject. Philosophical sometimes. My lecturers expect us to really think about issues we read, and we HAVE to prep for tutorials, which I think I'm beginning to get the hang of. Lots of reading, and thinking and discussing. I like it, like its a real EDUCATION. Not just drumming facts and facts into your head. More like, checking out principles and asking if they are right or wrong. I'm so glad I took Econs, and not just science subjects, otherwise, this way of learning would be totally foreign to me.

Socially, still feeling very inadequate and quiet. And I can't seem to push myself out of my shell!! I'm so scared, I think, about what people think about me, its becoming a disability. Argh!! Since when was I so shy?! Lord help me...I KNOW how to do it, I just don't feel like I want to. Its crippling me.. Funny thing is, the very people I want to meet, I'm shying away from. I've no problems talking to people. I've a problem approaching them and keeping a conversation going. Feeling very frustrated now. Garn!!!

Nevermind, give me time. But time is exactly what I don't have.

~LOL

Tuesday, October 13, 3:37:00 am
Cooking In Southampton

Malaysian students can cook. Proof?

Sarawak Laksa!!

Looks good no?



Guest of the day: Hande from Cyprus


The chefs:


Aww...Jo Yee shy..


Elena, master shredder


Keane Ritikos (I think he's trying to look like the Hulk)


Draco (who is much nicer than Malfoy) from Hong Kong


Vincent, laksa paste importer


Plus yours truly, who hasn't got a pic of herself cooking, because obviously, I'm cooking?

Process:

Thats chicken in the pot and kuali by the way.



With the laksa paste

Don't forget to stir!

Busy busy..

Smelling good

End product!

Ho Chiak!

So proud of us la...XP we keep making good food. Or rather its our sweat that makes everything taste sweet. Speaking of food, my dinner just now was very very pathetic. Hate not having a saucepan, can only cook with the tiny rice cooker.

Have failed to jog, so the new mission is to walk everyday to uni. Cos the above gang of Malaysians ALL have a Sports Rec (which is a sports facility pass), and I wanting to save $$ have not got one, so my exercise will make do with walking la..

Law lectures and classes are not easy. Lecturers expect us to know a lot of basic law terms, like "indictment", "tribunals", "arraignment", "causation" etc. Have to do some reading before going to class otherwise I'll be blur like what only..And to top it all, I lost my file today. =( My notes are gone..Just have to photostat my friend's one.. And wasted a hardly used test pad, and a good file. =(

Gotta go do laundry now. My bra dropped into the 1-inch-high puddle of water in the bathroom. =( disgusting..

~No need to whine

Thursday, October 8, 12:33:00 am
piggin out


Been eating a lot lately. Still my 3 meals, but every meal is pretty heavy. Was determined not to eat so much today, but my will failed me. Had a sandwich, crisps, banana, 4 fingers of Kit Kat and a tin of Sprite for lunch. Dinner was egg salad that I originally planned for sandwiches today and tomorrow, but it tasted so good I HAD to have it for dinner. Oh help me..My plan to jog is failing too..Cold until cannot jog la.. So I'm just relying on cheerleading to keep me fit.

The 2 week intensive has started, so I'll probably be quite busy. Need to set up a routine soon. Met my tutorial group (which is my "class") today. It was supposed to be a team-building exercise, and we did pretty well, but I don't feel very close to my team mates. It'll take time I guess, and on my part, I wasn't very "present". Tomorrow we're going to the Law Courts to observe how it works.

But surprisingly, I don't feel very excited. Is this part of culture shock?? Where you just drift from one task to the next, not really caring about who you meet or whether you had fun. Hell, I used to be able to remember people's names really easily, but I dunno why now I can just forget names in an instant. I don't feel like I'm living in the present, and I havn't seized each oppotunity that comes by. Which I think is kinda sad. So, my game plan is to go have a good think about why I'm here and brainwash myself that everything here is a new and exciting experience, so that I'll be better able to enjoy my stay here.

I guess I understand what it means to truly miss home, family and friends. There's no "backup" system here. Like if you're in trouble, nobody is obligated to come to your rescue. I guess I'm still stuck in my comfort zone, I'm not stepping out to meet people. And even when I try to, I gravitate towards Asians. Maybe its cos I don't want to, but I know I have to. And the earlier the better.

~So in the name of love, let me step out!