yea. thts the reason i havn been bloggin. but im actually not supposed to blog rite now cos i have to input books into the new online library system. but thre are ppl on msn and such too so i gues i can have a breather. its freezing! my hands are numb.

u noe yest i went thru a self discovery session. induced by sunny tellin me not to take tuition tht i don need. eg. bio and chem. ltr i'll elaborate. seems lyk i recover pretty fast from my resolutions. i mean, im supposed to improve myself and all cos i said i wud, and well, i havn made any visible progress today. but then again its only been a day. one of the things i said i wud do is to be hardworkin. another is to mean wht i say and do it. the nxt is to be humble. cos im so bloody stubborn and arrogant. well thts wat my mum says. i admit it. so i gues lyk sher says, have to keep improving ourselves day by day.

ok not to elaborate on sunny and tuition and the connection btween these two. well i want to take chem and bio tuition at my tuition centre so i told him im taking it la, being the dutiful girlfriend i am. then he asked me why i wanna take, i don need it wat? if i study by myself, i don need to waste time taking tuition. so we got to arguing cos i know i'm lazy and if i don take tuition, i usually won study by myself. he doesn't want me to be dependant on tuition. then he said, if i take tuition i shud study by myself too, so tht i'm not dependant la. then i argued and said tht if im hardworkin i wudn take in the first place. i dunno la... its reli very messy and a big mess up of me la.

but tht conversation led me to go rethink abt my point of life and wht i wanna do wit my life. cos he made a point in sayin tht i shud start trainin myself to be hardworkin now. so tht nxt time wen i work it'll be easier for me to push myself. and talks wit my parents and the newspaper articles all lead me to believe if i want a future, i have to start studying now. and be independant too. its not easy la, to switch ur personality from total lazy bum to hardworkin and studious. i guess i have to keep improving myself. and relations wit ppl too.

the prob wit me is i always have these big dreams and goals but i nvr try to achieve them myself, jus wait for the opportunity to fall into my lap. so yea, u have to create opportunities. not wait for them. i gues i have to go now. after those wise words and musings. haha... kidding. i'm no smarter than anyone. time to input.... argh..... whole morning only input books. the life of a librarian...