by daniel (thank you for your concern over my blog..XP)

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
when i meet the guy God tells me to marry? (hopefully He'll tell me before i'm 30 and after i'm 26)

2. What will you do when you really feel emo?
sigh, eat, scream, cry, write, pray. in that order.

3. Who is your idol?
thou shall not have false idols. so i guess Jesus and oprah winfrey can't be that false

4. Where is the place that you want to go most?
too many.. italy, south africa, new york, japan, thailand, vietnam, mexico, brazil, prague. i will visit each continent at least once.

5. If you one dream to come true, what would it be?
just to be the best person i can be

6. What is the purpose of your life?
same as above

7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
Myself. Family and friends.

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
accomplishing something.. like exercise!

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
hmm..depends. but definitely will send signals

10. List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
must i?
- writes poetry
- funny
- thinks too much

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
bitches. and people who hate humans in particular

12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
only a million ah? invest 50%, the rest, splurge!

13. What is your ambition?
to have the top law firm in the country

14. What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?
mope, mourn, move on

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
low confidence, and procrastination

16. What is your favorite color(s)?
blue! green and orange too..recently purple

17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends and family

18. If there's one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
Travel the world

19. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
hug and kiss (yes, kiss) everyone i love

20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
understanding, loves God, relatively intelligent

8 things I'm passionate about:
in no particular order
-books
-friends and family
-God
-life
-love
-music
-fashion
-food

8 things I say or do too often :
-shit
-damn
-procrastinate
-eat
-not socializing
-being late
-not going out of my comfort zone
-judge people

8 things I've read recently:
-Once
-The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar
-newspaper
-Daniel's blog
-some magic book
-The Malay Dilemma(half finished)
-The Postman (great book!!)
-a book on Albert Einstein

8 songs I could listen over and over again :
-Twenty Something(Jamie Cullum)
-My Love(Justin Timberlake)
-Bounce(Timbaland)
-Everything(Michael Buble)
-Summertime(Billie Holiday)
-Hit the Road Jack(Ray Charles)
-DOA(Foo Fighters)
-Orinoco Flow(Enya)

8 things I learned last year:
-to appreciate people more
-friendship and connection is reli important
-life goes on
-work harder!
-that i like old songs
-singlehood is great
-just to enjoy myself
-to keep rockin on

8 people I tag:
-joanna
-sarah alicia
-daniel
-g ling
-anyone who reads this crap

XP i'm touched. by the many people who bothered to check on me..

not gonna bother with the reasons cos basically there's only one. (take a guess, its got the letters l-a-z-y)

what happened?

i went jungle-trekking and a snake ate me alive but i or it tasted bad

survived? yup, so finished my semester 1 exam. but not hoping much. the rest? a blur..

so wht now?

just finished my semester 1 exam.. hols now, so i'm reli quite free..

plan to study. (nerd-o!) cos reli knowin myself, i won have time for it ltr.

perdana essay comin up, will win THAT chevrolet aveo!!

piano exam!! oh crap.. its july somethin.. hopefuly don clash wit trailblazer

rage trailblazer in july, crossin fingers tht jo can come.

moving on to how i feel.. (yes, i am human after all)

drained at first.

do you know how it feels like to be depended upon? like a strong sturdy pole for someone to lean on. unfaltering you know? even though inside you're getting a lil tired each day. sometimes you worry cos even when the 'leaner' is on you, he/she is still so feeble you're afraid he/she will fall? and you do wanna help catch them, but it takes strength to change suddenly from a pole to a mattress you know? you just hope that he/she is gonna get back their strength soon, so that you no longer need to bear their weight. heck, someone take him/her off!! need..space..breathe..

sounds so heroic huh? or dramatic, whichever way you call it. go figure..

otherwise, i'm tryin not to blame. really. but i do so sigh at a lot of missed opportunities. (yes, call it a loser's attitude)and not living up to expectations, whether mine or others. and image. oh bloody stinking image. its just so irritating to keep up a front. and don tell me that its not necessary to keep a front.

all that "be yourself" bullshit stuff isn't magic. desperate times call for desperate measures. especially in social situations. you know, i barely know societal etiquette. i wonder whether sometimes i do things wrong. like, was i supposed to shake his hand when i left? or.. do i reli need to compliment her fashion sense? and, i don reli know her, what kind of birthday present to get or should i even be giving something to her when i'd rather save up for somethin else?

hehe..should i even be worried about all this? its inherent, and i intend to be good at this kind of thing by the time i'm working. and i worry, about my social network, or rather, the lack of one. i'm being so honestly frank, it scares me. what if someone i don reli know reads this? i sound like a bloody con-artist/whiner

and yes, i suppose that is my great weakness.

~pathetic little loser