now i know many of us have fought/argued/killed somebody before..
but what abt reconciliation?

today i feel good.
SOMEONE SAID SORRY TO ME TODAY!!
quite out of the blue. first sms in the mornin.. although he's a bit late(by about 9 months), but the main thing is that he actually did apologize. which i didn expect him to. although i technically have alredi forgiven him aredi, its official now.. woot! good man! seriously brighten up my day.. and i got back a friend. i dunno if he feels the same way, but i feel lyk thre was this gloomy cloud wit lil sparks, that jus got turned into sunshiny day.

haha.. that feeling.. of forgiveness.. is somethin reli hard to get. its lyk, woosh! everything washes away.. now i kinda might understand why God likes to forgive us so much. i always wondered why. until now. i think its cos being unforgiving, creates this divide and jus ruins relationships. everythin is cold and bitter. i don think humans were meant to be angry. but then again, forgiveness is prob best served chilled?

anyway, forgiving is a good thing! and the results are way worth the effort. i know it takes guts, and the temporary removal of pride, but after you overcome that, its not too difficult after all.. XP

ok you all know me. i do not go gaga over every guy i meet. i'm pretty selective actually. and you all know that i've always thought chinese are sadly the ugliest people on earth (mua included), except for very few exceptions.

ok ignore the cigarette, focus on the man!! you cannot deny he is way too good looking.. in fact these pictures don do him justice, wait till you watch the show! its on AEC channel on astro every night at 8pm. he plays a good gangster(one with principles) but he dies at the end..*sob*

the best scene is of him saving the heroine(who isn much to speak of) who is being chased by evil ppl(typical useless girl). and he guns the bad guys down but in the end he gets killed..

i lyk the fact tht he's not always clean shaven, so he isnt ur typical average pretty boy. he's rugged, charming, , dashing, gorgeous, tall, dark and handsome. in short, hot hot HOT!! whats more to ask of his looks?

~ feels like i'm melting

HOLS ARE HERE!!!


thats why i get to post..XP


i was thinkin abt whre i'd be a yr from now. prob on my flight to NUS? LSE? XXX?

but the point is, i've nvr left home for long. and i wondered a lot.

like, what to pack? am i gonna cry when i leave my dog? i hope my grandma won cry. and which dress and shoes to take? XP am i gonna meet my someone thre?

and that got me thinkin abt my friends who are away from home. Sarah, Jyh, Daniel, YY.. i put myself in their shoes and yea, its tough living alone i guess. no one to take care of you except yrself. wash ur own clothes, get ur own food, clean ur own room and toilet, motivate urself...

but now i'm more on the "how the hell am i gonna get my sorry butt to uni?"
more importantly, no money! i'm dying to get myself to some good uni for law but frankly, it is so damn blooody expensive!!! why is it that people don wan us to study anymore? admittingly, i am half nerd, not true blood. and God knows how TOUGH it is to get into some good uni AND have the money too...

shall i tell you my secret dream?
I want to go to Oxford. and....
Jardine may help me!
Its a super competitive, highly difficult scholarship to get. i'm not even going to pretend i am good enough for it. but i HAVE to try.. looks like i'm up for another round of applications... plus LNAT and UCAS. i have 3(yelp!) applications to do this hols.

small update, i didnt get the GIC scholarship, basil passed to the next round. i know i screwed up my interview. my mouth just spilled horrendous loads of rubbish. blek.. eek.. well at least i now know what NOT to do for an interview.

perdna essay results still not out.. waitin impatiently.. and me b'day around some 20 days corner.. not to mention the looming AS EXAMZZZZ...
well for trials, i guess i did ok, considering the fact tht i did not reli work my butts out.

sigh..jus thinkin abt uni is gettin me very worried.. financial situation is not exactly great here. i know i'm such a huge burden on my parents pocketstrings.. but God gives us trials to test us i guess.. jus need to hold on and do well.