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These Hard Times-Matchbox Twenty

Just been talking to God, and realized, yes it has been indeed a challenging year, or past couple of years. Especially for my family. I mean, we've always been pretty stable financially, until my dad quit his job. Freelancing doesn't sit comfortably in a family who always thought to be financially secure, you gotta have a 9 to 5 job. But thank God He has kept us together, safe and relatively ok. I won't say happy because certainly there's some stress, especially since I'm about to go to uni and an education overseas is not exactly cheap.

So yes, I think I would have a bigger burden than most of my classmates. I'm not gonna compare myself to people whose parents are hawkers etc. But for me, coming from a comfortable background, I don think I like getting used to having an unstable source of income. It probably has been a good thing also la, I've been pushed and challenged more than usual. Good motivation to study, hah! XP I think it'll always be my motivation to get first class honours. A few hundred thousand bucks is a lot of money to waste!

Frankly, I don't know if I'll ever get over the guilt of wasting money on the UNSW and ANU applications, and also my SATs. Perhaps also my LNAT because I didn't even accept the unis which wanted it. Ah! I'll just have to earn it all back when I start lawyering.

There! I've ranted all I want. It's a load of my chest. No worries, God takes care of His kids very well. And I've been blessed with good friends, bestest ever!!

Now I'm just worried about my brother. Smart kid who isn't clever enough to realize he's worth more than he thinks. Argh...I don't want to go away leaving him immature. Just gotta pray he grows up quicker. I mean tuitioning him is like teaching the 6 year olds in my kindy. Even they are scared of me, and my bro isn't. Sad right? I can teach other kids but not my own bro.

~thank You for Your strength