Been eating a lot lately. Still my 3 meals, but every meal is pretty heavy. Was determined not to eat so much today, but my will failed me. Had a sandwich, crisps, banana, 4 fingers of Kit Kat and a tin of Sprite for lunch. Dinner was egg salad that I originally planned for sandwiches today and tomorrow, but it tasted so good I HAD to have it for dinner. Oh help me..My plan to jog is failing too..Cold until cannot jog la.. So I'm just relying on cheerleading to keep me fit.

The 2 week intensive has started, so I'll probably be quite busy. Need to set up a routine soon. Met my tutorial group (which is my "class") today. It was supposed to be a team-building exercise, and we did pretty well, but I don't feel very close to my team mates. It'll take time I guess, and on my part, I wasn't very "present". Tomorrow we're going to the Law Courts to observe how it works.

But surprisingly, I don't feel very excited. Is this part of culture shock?? Where you just drift from one task to the next, not really caring about who you meet or whether you had fun. Hell, I used to be able to remember people's names really easily, but I dunno why now I can just forget names in an instant. I don't feel like I'm living in the present, and I havn't seized each oppotunity that comes by. Which I think is kinda sad. So, my game plan is to go have a good think about why I'm here and brainwash myself that everything here is a new and exciting experience, so that I'll be better able to enjoy my stay here.

I guess I understand what it means to truly miss home, family and friends. There's no "backup" system here. Like if you're in trouble, nobody is obligated to come to your rescue. I guess I'm still stuck in my comfort zone, I'm not stepping out to meet people. And even when I try to, I gravitate towards Asians. Maybe its cos I don't want to, but I know I have to. And the earlier the better.