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FAT I am

Garn...Weighed myself in the gym today. Feeling so miserable.....Am now 55.4kg...AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

After trying to keep a food diary, limiting cal intake and annoying my friends over how much calories are in my food, I go and PUT ON WEIGHT. Pissed is not even close to what I'm feeling. My body fat is 25%. Dammit. 1 quarter of me is FAT. FAT. FAT. FAT!!!

Breathe Nicole, breathe.

I have a plan. Its not drastic, just means I'm gonna have to change my habits and mindset about eating. Slowly does it, main thing is I must keep the goal in mind. 48kg. Must remind myself. Got 7kg to lose. Exercise. How do I get exercise into my day?? Walking to uni hasn't helped much.

Dance class has stopped for hols. Getting Sports Rec is too exp, and not worth it now. Will try going back to my old before bedtime routine. 15 push ups, 15 sit ups. Slowly increase when I get better. Not much, but a little is better than none.

Eating plans aren't helping. Maybe I'm doing it the wrong way. Gotta research this. Will try more protein, and eat every meal full full. No snacks. Sleep early. Not at 2am like now, when my tummy is grumbling...

On a lighter note, IT SNOWED!!!!!!!!!!

Light snow, but still, SNOW!! By the time it reached the ground, already melted. But don spoil it for me, my first real snow!! XP Was in the bus on the way to work when I saw it. A snowflake landed on the bus window, and my gosh, I was so excited, had to tell all the M'sians...LOL

I'm gonna try zha jiang mian with beef mince tomoro. Don hv work, so must study. Havn started yet. Eek!! Still have my personal statement too..

And the leather jacket decision is: Must wait for January sale.

~plans plans plans

Decisions

Whee! Went house-hunting today...So exciting la..I guess its the feeling of independence and "Ooh, I'm getting a house.." kind of feeling. And I can proudly say I did the research and arrangements with the agents (which is not a lot, but still...XP) Now I really need to do a pros&cons list between staying in halls or moving out. The house in Ripstone Gardens is the one I want. Sounds like cemetery right? Its about £72 a week for me, including all the bills and stuff. About the same as what I'm paying now. But I'm thinking that in a house I'll have to do lots of my own cleaning, nobody take care of my mail, etc. But I get added benefits like staying with my friends, more support, nearer to uni, etc. Decisions, decisions, decisions..

And I want a leather jacket. I saw one online that I really like, will go try it this Sat. But its really expensive..I'll literally be working this Christmas for the jacket, if I get it. But then again, its an investment cos I'll be using it almost everyday in uni for 3 years. Or more if I decide to stay here...Should I just settle for a faux leather jacket which is a lot cheaper? I have a feeling if I mention the price difference, you people will go like:"She mad ah?!? " Ok la.. The 100% leather jacket on the right is £140, the 100% polyurethane one on the left (its the wrong colour, supposed to be brown) is £30. OK, help me out then.. Vote in the cbox..

They look almost the same right? I mean the cut is the same, only the fake one looks, well, fake la. I don't know how long the fake one will last. And whether its breathable. I'm still keeping my options open la, cos there's a lot of shops in West Quay (the shopping mall) that I haven't had a look yet. And also I still have this niggling thought about NOT getting a leather jacket, and get a normal wool coat instead. Another list of pros&cons to do. Thing is, wool coats will smell, and they're not showerproof. Rains almost everyday now, so at least the water will slide off the leather jacket. If I work, its ok to buy the real one right?? I'll be earning £180..The jacket is £140. So tempted la...Maybe I should wait until they have sale..Worth it? Not worth it?

~making a list