Garn...Weighed myself in the gym today. Feeling so miserable.....Am now 55.4kg...AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

After trying to keep a food diary, limiting cal intake and annoying my friends over how much calories are in my food, I go and PUT ON WEIGHT. Pissed is not even close to what I'm feeling. My body fat is 25%. Dammit. 1 quarter of me is FAT. FAT. FAT. FAT!!!

Breathe Nicole, breathe.

I have a plan. Its not drastic, just means I'm gonna have to change my habits and mindset about eating. Slowly does it, main thing is I must keep the goal in mind. 48kg. Must remind myself. Got 7kg to lose. Exercise. How do I get exercise into my day?? Walking to uni hasn't helped much.

Dance class has stopped for hols. Getting Sports Rec is too exp, and not worth it now. Will try going back to my old before bedtime routine. 15 push ups, 15 sit ups. Slowly increase when I get better. Not much, but a little is better than none.

Eating plans aren't helping. Maybe I'm doing it the wrong way. Gotta research this. Will try more protein, and eat every meal full full. No snacks. Sleep early. Not at 2am like now, when my tummy is grumbling...

On a lighter note, IT SNOWED!!!!!!!!!!

Light snow, but still, SNOW!! By the time it reached the ground, already melted. But don spoil it for me, my first real snow!! XP Was in the bus on the way to work when I saw it. A snowflake landed on the bus window, and my gosh, I was so excited, had to tell all the M'sians...LOL

I'm gonna try zha jiang mian with beef mince tomoro. Don hv work, so must study. Havn started yet. Eek!! Still have my personal statement too..

And the leather jacket decision is: Must wait for January sale.

~plans plans plans