giving everyday my best shot
Thursday, August 27, 9:31:00 pm
my dog's home!!

yayayayayayay!!!! Dip's home!! Sutures are still a bit swollen, so pray hard won't have infection. But i'm jus glad he's home. Cos I know he's been missing his home..

I've got my visa letter today too. Hopefully the visa will process quickly. Booked my air tickets. Confirmed accommodation. Haha.. So many things I can cross of my checklist.

I'm happy when stuff gets done. XP

Things left to do:
1) Finish the visa application
2) Bank letter
3) Medical check up n dentist appointment
4) Insurance
5) Take photographs
6) Shop for supplies

oh n gsc gives you a free ticket in your birthday month, if you're a member



Saturday, August 22, 10:56:00 pm
impatient




4th sept my last day!!!!!!!!!!

XP

long awaited..Want it to come so badly..

1:22:00 pm
decided



I will go to Southampton. Confirmed. But perhaps only for a year.
Applying ucas now, to the London unis to see if JPA will give me a scholarship for 2010.

Monday, August 17, 12:06:00 am
Stress and Relief



STRESS

I have to decide and/or do nothing about which uni I'm going to. Because, suddenly my mum, throws me this suggestion: "My colleagues told me there are unis in Sweden that provide free tuition even for international students. Go check it out" And guess what, there really are free unis there, for many courses. And the unis are really world class. Thing is, Sweden is changing this in 2010. Secretly, I don't really wanna go Europe, and I won't be able to practice law here if I do read law there.

But my mum insists on being optimistic. "Just check some more, go international whatever. Don't need come back home la.." Yo.. My heart drop la.. I told her I don't really wanna go. She said, consider it. Right now, I can't. The idea is like, very far fetched la.. I've already tried so hard to look for scholarships, best is Southampton. You know, life doesn't like giving hand-outs. Just debt.

But I know she's thinking like, "Your results are so good, sure can find better alternative than Southampton" She doesn't realize (or maybe she doesn't want to), that there are so many hundreds of straight A's students, from CAL alone. The rest of the world is just as good, or even better than me. How the heck am I supposed to get a free education? At a renowned uni?ROAR!!!!

RELIEF

My kindy has more teachers now. And less kids cos the parents scared of H1N1. So now the teachers are more lax. And I don't teach anymore cos 2 new teachers replaced me already. So I'm just a babysitter now. BOOOOORRRIIINNGG....And I was put in charge of concert decorations. Me?! Who can't draw to save my life? Sigh..Just gotta try my best.

~Lord help me

Friday, August 14, 12:40:00 am
These Hard Times-Matchbox Twenty



Just been talking to God, and realized, yes it has been indeed a challenging year, or past couple of years. Especially for my family. I mean, we've always been pretty stable financially, until my dad quit his job. Freelancing doesn't sit comfortably in a family who always thought to be financially secure, you gotta have a 9 to 5 job. But thank God He has kept us together, safe and relatively ok. I won't say happy because certainly there's some stress, especially since I'm about to go to uni and an education overseas is not exactly cheap.

So yes, I think I would have a bigger burden than most of my classmates. I'm not gonna compare myself to people whose parents are hawkers etc. But for me, coming from a comfortable background, I don think I like getting used to having an unstable source of income. It probably has been a good thing also la, I've been pushed and challenged more than usual. Good motivation to study, hah! XP I think it'll always be my motivation to get first class honours. A few hundred thousand bucks is a lot of money to waste!

Frankly, I don't know if I'll ever get over the guilt of wasting money on the UNSW and ANU applications, and also my SATs. Perhaps also my LNAT because I didn't even accept the unis which wanted it. Ah! I'll just have to earn it all back when I start lawyering.

There! I've ranted all I want. It's a load of my chest. No worries, God takes care of His kids very well. And I've been blessed with good friends, bestest ever!!

Now I'm just worried about my brother. Smart kid who isn't clever enough to realize he's worth more than he thinks. Argh...I don't want to go away leaving him immature. Just gotta pray he grows up quicker. I mean tuitioning him is like teaching the 6 year olds in my kindy. Even they are scared of me, and my bro isn't. Sad right? I can teach other kids but not my own bro.

~thank You for Your strength

Tuesday, August 11, 3:13:00 pm
whee! Thank God..

STRAIGHT!!!!! THANK THE LORD!!

These results mean that I can go anywhere..XP or more like Southampton has to give me the scholarship now.. But oh the pound is starting to reach 6 aredi..Expensive.. But still thank God for the results.