Reading the last post, on growing up and losing my naivety, doing the internship in Singapore has really opened my eyes to the working world, and all the societal innuendos that come with it. Like what or what not to say & do, in order not to offend your bosses/ colleagues. Things like showing face and giving others back a gift for treating you lunch. Hoho.. Feel like I've just aged, especially in those first few weeks, I was literally tip-toeing around everyone, trying not to get in the way. Yet I feel that I may not have made a lasting impression on the bosses, due to my shy, unassuming ways. I haven't really been confident, partly because I didn't know my place, and partly because I thought that was a good way to learn. Just watch and listen. Old school. I guess this is another thing to learn. Next opportunity, I have to be more confident. Its a lot about comfortability I guess. I'm not very comfortable with myself, at this juncture, because I realise how inexperienced, how insignificant I am in the greater magnitude of the world.

Yet now I think about it, its amazing how God actually regards me as His special one. And that even though there are tens of million of people in the world, yet I'm the only Nicole, and there has not, and there will never be another person who is me. Its quite amazing. So my next question is, can I, as an individual, as one out of the many millions, make a difference in the world? Or is whatever I do so minuscule that there will be no impact on this planet? If so, then how can I make a difference, or rather do I want to make a difference? Do I want to challenge myself, do I want to change the future, and take an active stand in moulding and shaping a better Earth as I see it? Do I even have what it takes to be the person I want to be? Deep questions, and ones that I will have to mull over.

~to be or not to be, that is a funny question.